Tuesday, December 27, 2005

A Party of 25

Have you ever walked into a room and thought: "Wow, that's a lot of people!" Well, that's kinda how it felt after I walked back into my family room after getting off my cell phone during my party on Monday the 26th. We were watching a tight movie called 'Serenity' and EVERYONE I had invited was upstairs watching it. The room is 13 feet wide from wall to wall and it was Packed with people. There were only 18 people at this point, the others would either show up later or had already had to leave. Needless to say the phrase "loose the bubble" has never applied more.

The party went very well, I think. Much because of my mother and keeping half the people entertained with a game of Pit, while I was playing pool and dealing with ordering our pizza. Fantastic woman, my mom, and I really enjoy being around her.

The only thing that could've made it better would have been if my darling Sarah had not left. I understand why she needed to and completely respect that. We didn't really hang out much, as she was talking with Ben and I was running around being a host, but it was nice to know she was there if ever I needed her. It's kind of that comforting reasurance that everything will be ok, because you know everything you could ever want or need is sitting in the front room with a ready smile and calming presence. Granted, it was still fun after she left, but it was just different once she was gone. The woman of my dreams became a dream and a wish earlier than I would have hoped, but she will always be there and will return just at the right time to make life a bliss worth living.

Aside from her departure there is really only one other event that sticks in my mind. It's a funny story to me, but it may be one of those you-have-to-be-there or a you-have-to-know-the-people kind of story.

A Lap Full of Water

I was playing pool, and I had a shot at the 4 ball that was right up against the side. I hit the cue fairly hard to try to bounce the 4 into the opposite center pocket. I nailed the 4 ball and the cue took flight and landed right in Sarah H's lap. She jumped and a bunch of water came out of her cup and went up her sleeve. She chased me around the pool table before hitting me with a drum stick. I finished the pool game, winning by 1 ball, and said goodbye to my darling. I came back downstairs to watch the next game of pool. I decided to sit on Steph's lap (who was sitting right next to Sarah H), just for kicks and giggles.

We talked while the pool game progressed, then Meg knelt down infront of me and said: "I'm sorry for what is about to happen". I had no idea what she was talking about, then Sarah H leans over and dumps the rest of her water right into my lap. I looked at my lap in puzzlement for a second, then twisted where I was sitting to dump the remainder into Steph's lap. I stood up and more water fell on Steph's knees. Meg was litterally on the floor laughing, Sarah H was busting up, and Steph was just flabergasted that Sarah H would've done that while I was on her lap.

I, myself, thought the "revenge" a way of trying to get attention and/or flirting. It was still funny, though. I guess it is kind of a you-have-to-be-there thing.

Signing Out/
~Beefy

Monday, December 05, 2005

Something I Just Realized

A blog is a sort of online diary, for most people, but I have found an inherant flaw with that belief. While it is, for all intents and purposes, just that it is, at the same time, not. Confused? Good, let me continue.

A diary, by definition, is a record of one's inner-most thoughts and feelings; a place for them to rant, rave, proclaim love, etc. How many poeple do you know that are willing to do this online for the world to read, especially if that someone who they're talking about has access to their blog?

Let us use the following situation for an example: You live far away from this someone, but are in regular contact with them (whether by email, IM, phone, it mattereth not). You have had a crush on this person for at least two years, but are scared to voice your thoughts directly to this someone for fear of rejection. You've ranted to all your friends about it, but, again, try to hide it from the someone for fear of rejection and hurt. This someone has access to your online blog.

There are two places you can go from here. The first Post It On Your Massively Public Online Blog or Write It In A Little Private Book. Hmm, which would you rather do? Wait! Before you make your choice, let's see the points of boths sides of the story first.

Post It On Your Massively Public Online Blog

  • HELLO EVERYONE! READ MY THOUGHTS!
  • HELLO THAT SOMEONE - I'M SO MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU!
  • HELLO WORLD - I LOVE THAT SOMEONE!
  • THAT SOMEONE - IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME, GET REALLY AWKWARD NOW BECAUSE YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL!

Write It In A Little Private Book

  • Ah, I can write and noone sees
  • If I want you to see this, that someone, I'll let you read it sometime
  • I can show it to my closest friends and noone else
  • Haha, now you're going to stay friends with me and never know that I like you until I decide it's time
So, now, looking back at these choices, which seems better for writing down all your personal thoughts? Well, in my opinion, it's number two. Then again, if you're trying to tell that someone, but you don't wanna do it face to face number one is better.

And you know, it's been 6 hour since I started writing this and I really can't remember where I was going with it... Well, feel free to draw your own conclusions, mine are gone.